While watching the tv, or more just staring at it…my mind wandered to the land of past mistakes!
You know the place….that place of self doubt….could I, should I have done things differently?
Would I have gotten that job, that career if I’d put myself first? Would life be better?
Is life bad?…..yeh we all know the place…..it’s like an island that lives in our head, we insist on visiting regardless of the fact it’s an uninhabitable island, full of poisonous things!
Which inevitably lead to the big question….am I happy with me myself and I?
I’m almost half a century….have I really gotten this far and want to change things? Would I really go back?…..
But you know….I do like myself and that took some time to get here.
The more this thought permeated in my head the more I realised that I wouldn’t change anything….if we could go back , choose again….would we still be us?
I doubt it….would my kids…my friends….my support…me….any of it be the same?
As I said, I like who I am.
I love my family, friends, support network ….changing anything would change it all….so no I wouldn’t go back, I wouldn’t change anything, not a second of it.
Sometimes the bad, at the time, turns out to be good in the long run.
Navigating Survival 