Navigating Survival

You know that feeling when you just know it’s the end of something?

Like no going back end… no thinking about it… no, I will leave it a few days/weeks/months lol 😂

Whether it be a course you were doing and decide it’s just not your thing, a hobby you have been doing but have lost all enthusiasm, hand washing the dishes and buying a dishwasher haha, even the end of friendships or relationships….

It can be gradual, sneak up on you even, or it can be like being hit by a train one morning when you open your eyes! Either way you just know… that’s it… it’s done… no matter what, it’s finished.

Something from your past, not your present or future… and no desire for it to be in your present or future. That’s when you know it’s really and truly ‘the end’, even if it is just simply washing dishes by hand.

Then there is the ‘giving up vs knowing when to let go’ paradox… personally, if it’s doing what serves you best, how can that be giving up?! Is it giving up?

Let go of the prune hands, buy the dishwasher… not giving up… saving your hands 😂. My point is… perspective is everything, but when it really is ‘the end’, does it ever feel like giving up or is it just simply moving on?

Are we just built to be negative? 

Is negativity easier than positivity? 

Maybe it’s just who I speak to (lol) although I doubt this due to most people being this way….have you noticed how people always want to tell you that bad thing that happened, or how someone else is dying?! 

What happened to the good stuff? Has the world, society run out of the good in life?

Have we programmed ourselves over decades that the negative is more interesting, exciting even? Therefore better conversation? 

Sensationalism over positivity? Is our good boring? 

For me, I prefer the positive, tell me about your wins however little. I (we) all have the negative, our own negative whatever that is, do we really need to hear the rest of the world’s negatives? 

The press for example, they do better off the negative than the positive…again have we programmed ourselves into this mindset?!

I believe in that old saying…”laughter is the best medicine”…ok laughter isn’t curing diseases, allowing people to walk again!

It is however cathartic, even if we are laughing at our silly little negatives…like when you put the fork in the bin along with the food scrapings, when you trip over the dog, do some spectacular gymnastics (which you thought your body was physically incapable of nowadays) and save yourself, while the dog just sits looking stunned. 

Things like that seem negative but they aren’t, they are laughable, laughter is good, positive. That’s what we need more of. 

When we meet each other and spend that meeting laughing, have you ever noticed we have a better connection with them? 

Try to be positive….im sure it’s the way forward. Who and what have we become if we can’t be positive and maybe even laugh at ourselves? 

What do you do to stay positive?

While watching the tv, or more just staring at it…my mind wandered to the land of past mistakes!

 You know the place….that place of self doubt….could I, should I have done things differently? 

Would I have gotten that job, that career if I’d put myself first? Would life be better?

Is life bad?…..yeh we all know the place…..it’s like an island that lives in our head, we insist on visiting regardless of the fact it’s an uninhabitable island, full of poisonous things!

Which inevitably lead to the big question….am I happy with me myself and I? 

I’m almost half a century….have I really gotten this far and want to change things? Would I really go back?…..

But you know….I do like myself and that took some time to get here. 

The more this thought permeated in my head the more I realised that I wouldn’t change anything….if we could go back , choose again….would we still be us? 

I doubt it….would my kids…my friends….my support…me….any of it be the same?

As I said, I like who I am.

I love my family, friends, support network ….changing anything would change it all….so no I wouldn’t go back, I wouldn’t change anything, not a second of it.

Sometimes the bad, at the time, turns out to be good in the long run. 

Music is a big part of me. It’s the one thing I’d struggle to live without. I can’t play any instruments competently – didn’t have the attention span!
I love to sing, but that’s definitely best done alone, with no human ears around that I could make bleed with my voice, ha. Some who know me also know how lyrical I can be with my music. Right now, I’m just sitting here, listening to a playlist my phone tells me is my favorite songs from the past ten years.
I honestly wish technology would stop reminding me how flipping old I’m getting all the time! Time flies when you’re having fun… or not… it just flies!

Life for me has been no different from most people’s over the past ten years – just completely fecking all over the place. Does the universe have a grudge against me? We all know what I’m talking about; we’ve all been (or are) there somewhere along this path of survival. And that’s what makes this playlist rather thought-provoking (and somewhat entertaining).
I can really see the progression in the music. The ups and downs. All of it. And yet, it also makes me realize sometimes when we are so into our music we occasionally come across other humans who end up perceiving some situations completely wrong…. What am I talking about, you ask?
This has mostly happened with people who don’t like to ‘talk’ about anything ‘deep’ – and this has come up with both women and men. Now, I’m not saying this approach is right or wrong, but I am saying that when people avoid ‘talking,’ active listening seems to go right out the window. That’s just my personal opinion, of course, haha.
Take a song like Shawn Mendes’ “Treat You Better.” I could be listening to that, thinking about the person I was with, reflecting on our situation. But they’d somehow think I was listening to it and thinking of someone else entirely! And not just that one, multiple love songs – always taken the wrong way.
Some songs I’ve related to one thing, and it’s made someone else take me completely the wrong way! It makes you wonder, isn’t music a wonderfully beautiful and powerful thing?
Disclaimer: These are just my personal thoughts and experiences. I am not a professional and I am not giving advice. Please seek professional advice if you feel you need support.

I think often that I’d love a more fulfilling life…..and yet how do we even start  the process of achieving it?!

 If you’re here looking for the answer to that….yeh you’re in the wrong place, 

I’ve no idea even at my age! Not far off 5 decades of life experience…still I don’t have the answers to pretty much anything…least that’s how it feels! Ha…

I’m sure in fact I know there is pretty much a ‘self help’ book or app claiming to help achieve fulfillment and more….each to their own but yeh not for me…and yes I’ve tried but I’ve yet to find one that actually helps rather than just what I’d call ‘gives pointers’ maybe that’s all someone/something else can do…maybe that’s the answer…after all we are all individuals in our own right, therefore ,as we know, fulfillment will be/is different for everyone….so in conclusion stop looking for ‘the answers’ and start doing what makes you happy (within the boundaries of the law….im NOT suggesting anything illegal) as making ourselves happy inevitably leads to fulfilment ♥️

Happy Sunday world 🌍 

Welcome to Navigating Survival.

Stepping into the world of blogging? Yeh that’s defo a new yet interesting step on this navigational path for me! 

Been considering doing this for years (ages showing!) yet never done a damn thing about it…so here I am…taken that jump….on what’s sure to be if not an interesting journey a comedy filled, almost cathartic expression of myself just for me then….what will be!